on these crumpled pieces of paper, i can only scrawl the madness in my head
the war my thoughts are waging against each other, the chaos in my mind
i'm screaming at the nothingness, hoping for it to consume me
nothing but my own insanity
just the darkness of my heart, and the anarchy of my mind
all is folly as i am nothing but a fool
too wrapped up in the fleeting hallucinations, lost in my delirium
watch my dreams fade away as the nightmare takes over
in this endless labyrinth of my psyche, there is no escape

silent made my day by linking me this:


actually, she linked me a different one where the music and movie was off, but whatever.  the point is: TAEYANG'S NEW VIDEO!!!  it's so beautiful!

omg! Ninja Assassin! i can't wait for this movie to come out. i'll be honest, i don't have too much of an interest in Rain, and the storyline of the movie seems 'meh', but the action actually looks good! hopefully, i won't be disappointed.

stole from renichifreak

The problem with LJ: We all think we are so close, but really we know nothing about one another. So I want you to ask me something you think you should know about me. Something that should be obvious, but you have no idea about. Ask away.

Then post this in your LJ and find out what people don't know about you.

i kinda forgot i got tagged for this by Oneesama miracleshining. so here goes.

You can learn a lot about someone by the music they listen to. So here is the game! Hit shuffle on your ipod or mp3 player and write down the first 25 songs. No cheating or skipping songs that are shameful. That is the fun! Then tag your friends.

( under here )

anyways, i tag: teh_lemon, silentruth, and . . . meela2389

a dear friend (i won't mention your name, just in case you wouldn't want me to) made a post on friendship(s), and i was prompted to reflect upon my own. in summary:

there have been friendships that i wish i had maintained.
there are others where i wish the other person valued the relationship as much as i did.
there are also friendships where time and distance just made it fade into the background of life.
and yet, there are friendships ~ that no matter what, regardless of the time or distance away ~ remain.

this (Canadian) Thanksgiving, is the first i'm spending it without [immediate] family and friends. regardless, i am still thankful for both.

♥

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

and if you want anything, tell me!

i missed Super Junior in Hong Kong. life hates me.

oh well, i guess i can still look forward to SJ-M coming to HK, right?

i was youtubing while i should be packing and cleaning my room (yeah, i was going to watch SJ M's "Super Girl" for the nth time), but found the entire site to be taken over by "Kanye West Disses/Interrupts Taylor Swift" and blah, blah, blah. don't get me wrong, i feel for the girl and think Kanye West was a jackass, but it's been a little overkill. then again, i'm also someone who doesn't really care much for either of them, so yeah.

however, what got me pissed was that someone commented on one of the videos (it was supposed to be a 'remix' video, so i was a little curious) with something like this: "people should stop giving Kanye sh*t for speaking his mind". excuse me? yeah, we all know Kanye West is an egoistic, narcissistic megalomaniac who tends to speak without thinking, and likes to throw tantrums when things don't go his way and to make himself heard in any means possible, but what he did to Taylor was not just 'speaking his mind'. that was blatant disrespect. if he wanted to speak his mind, no one's stopping him from posting a statement on his website or blog, or making a tweet about it, but to go onstage like that and interrupting Taylor was just crass. it doesn't matter if you feel she is undeserving of the award or if you feel someone else is more deserving of the award, she still deserves a certain amount of respect; if not as an artist, at least as a person.

and to whoever wants to defend Kanye West for 'speaking his mind', there is a difference between speaking your mind and being a jackass. Kanye was just being a disrespectful asshole.

i've been tagged

Rules:
1. Write down every letter of your name.
2. Then type a song that pops up in your mind in each letter of your name as the first letter.
3. Count the letters of your name, and tag that many people.

F - "Filth in the Beauty" by the GazettE
L - "Lollipop" by Big Bang and 2NE1
A - "About You" by Ayumi Hamasaki
M - "May It Be" by Enya
E - "End of the World" by The TraX

i tag:
silent
alex
srax
meela
mrawrrr

i used to scoff at girls who cried over a broken nail. from this day forward, i shall show a little more sympathy.

it can actually hurt a lot.

to the little brat who drives daddy's BMW/Benz/Porsche/etc:

YOU DO NOT OWN THE ROAD (*insert gasp*)

i know.  as shocking as that sounds, it's the truth.  contrary to what your egoistic little mind or even what your owner's manual may tell you, the road does not belong to you.  you share it with everybody else with a car and a license (and some who don't, but that's besides the point).  using your signals is common courtesy.  if i'm going straight, and you're turning into the street i'm already on (or even if it's just a roadway in the parking lot), it's pretty much a given that i have the 'right of way' (especially if there's a sign that even says so).  if you have a stop sign, and i do not, it doesn't mean you don't have to stop, it means i don't have to.

driving an expensive car does not give you the right to be a dumbass.  i don't know if your insurance policy covers for idiocy, because the last i checked, mine certainly didn't.  driving 100km/h on a 50km/h street does not make you look cool ~ it makes you look like a maniac.  i don't care if you don't value your life, because despite how crappy mine may be, i still want to live it for at least a little longer.  just because you drive something worth twice, maybe even three times, the value of my car, doesn't make me any less of a driver than you.

i understand that nobody's perfect, i mean, i for one can vouch for that.  however, there is a difference between an imperfect driver and a selfish, egotistic dumbass.  i bid thee good day.

sincerely,
flame

お誕生日おめでとうお姉さま! ♥

miracleshining, i hope you have a wonderful birthday filled with sunshine and smiles *hugs*

stolen from music_loner.  i thought it was cute.  feel free to alter it though if you don't like the original format.

to my dearest and most wonderful L'il Flame (or whatever you feel like calling me),

i ____ you.
you have a nice ______.
you make me _______.
you should _______.
someday i will ______.
you + me = ________.
if i saw you now i'd __________.
i want to ________ you.
i would build a _______ just for you.
if I could sing you any song it would be _________.
we could __________ under the stars.

love,
_______________

(P.S. ______________.)

right . . . totally forgot about it. anyways, here goes:

1 ~ D'espairsRay
2 ~ Dir en grey
3 ~ Yoriko
4 ~ Dong Bang Shin Ki
5 ~ The TraX
6 ~ Hamasaki Ayumi
7 ~ JJ Lin
8 ~ SID
9 ~ The GazettE
10 ~ Duel Jewel
11 ~ Super Junior
12 ~ Kagrra,
13 ~ Big Bang
14 ~ SHINee
15 ~ TegoMass
16 ~ Kittie
17 ~ Chun Sang Ji Hee
18 ~ alan
19 ~ exist†trace
20 ~ Yiruma

and i'm lazy, so if you're curious about any of the above, you're gonna hafta look them up on youtube yourself XP